28th Oct 2010

you doesn't know how disappointed am i... how much it hurts to me. hearing from another girl saying that you are flirting with them and you didnt and never admit you with me even they saw before we hold hand and i really dont know what to say. end up nothing and my toughest cant help and last i cried.
my tear drops.
how hurt it is.
did you ever love me?
i wonder...

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i love you

i miss you so badly.
it just hurt.
how i wish i can get someone new in my life. so i wont cry.
i really tired being tough alone. can you dont made me cry.
all i want from you just dont made me cry

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hurt

am i something that you need then find. and never take me seriously?
is that i am just something you need not respect?
call me to on skype twice then yourself didnt on?
is that a joke?
is that you want me forever be the one who tolerate?
no way.
can you change or you dont love me at all just dont find me.. i really rather love you myself dont want you torture my feelings and heart. my soul and heart isnt that tough at all

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Behind the Diary

you always are someone special for me,
maybe i really being brainwashed.
somehow just want you to know that
you meant something really really special for me.
you always being a part of my life.
i cant promise forever,
but i really take you as someone pretty special till the last breath of mine.
<3

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Special

my diet plan. =) huggies. been 18 days jor lo... but last night dont know what happen. vomit very kick... even i ate around8.30++ then around 12.50 start vomitting =S cant help me...
i just know banana that in green color can be eat de =) lolx.
without you i need to finish the whole malicai myself. no longer can eat with rice or stuff because you here i can eat like that. now if ask for malicai only can eat it... because i cant finish so much.
bby~ i miss you...
i miss calling your name.
i miss seeing your eyes
i miss hugging you from the back.
i miss the smell of yours.
i miss the way you sleep.
i miss when i woke up you are just right beside me.
not because a habit. is because i love you~

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when you come to problems

i felt like a fool... but just cant help myself to be there for you when you need me.
i tired to be tough try not to care or soft hearted still =( i fail.
i love you.. i worried.
i care about you.
even just open you profile and check out.. my heart, my chest, my breath all are out of my control!

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you always the one

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am i stupid?

people keeps saying i am just a "shuoi pou" for you.
when there is no one you know there always me waiting for you.
is that working that way? i wonder. what am i for you till today i cant figure it out.
am i just a joke for you.? yes i suppose if not you wont so bother to hurt me and made me cry even just sometimes find me sometimes doesnt right.

i just wonder am i doing the right thing.
ya i do complain saying you not good this and that but why am i still letting you hurt me.
is that love really made me blind? i cant understand or solve the myst till now.

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no more lie pls

we talk... we argue...
i cried...
i really didnt mind... just please dont take me as a toy... because you meant so much special thing for me. =( i love you more than anything in this world....
you ask me am i putting you as the goal of my stuff... and are you the first position well this should be very pretty clear i suppose because you meant so much for me... i love you more than anything can replace this love. you should not ask me such a thing... should know it clearly..
dont tell me lies.
dont cheat me...
because i really love you

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movie

you used to bring me go movie every weekend so there will no movie i will be outdated... but now no longer you by my side so much movie i didnt watch because no more yong yong bring ziwei to cinema... i miss you... no matter how much pain you made me felt somehow i just miss you more than ever... =(
i just cant help myself angry or hurt all the 24/7... somehow the sweetness is there always with me...

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pain

you hurt me so bad today.
i dont know what to say other than just can cry there.
you made me so broken once again.
it hurts like hell and you never know how pain i am in now.
all i been wanting just be in relationship with you so i wont felt so insecure. you should know well than others all i want is you. you should know just a hug from you i felt secure i will be calm and sleep well.
how should i stop my tear with all of my mind is you?
you can care so much in one day and suddenly doesnt care at all like that how should i believe and felt secure with that? it hurts

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Monthsary 2year 1 month

Happy Monthsary..
you dont know how happy i am can chat with you through skype for more than one hour nearly 2 hours if add 3 more minutes. =)
8th oct 2010...

now is 12.21am 9th oct... =) monthsary bby... i love you... and it never change till today.
heart you more than word can replace the feeling i had to you. ^^

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i love you more than word could show

even got assignment that need to be due still remember rest well oh... dont like when you got sick=(
i miss you very badly... i always thought i have forgot you. or i had let go since there so much pain occur by you to me. i cant bare any of it anymore. still i cant because you are so much meaningful and special for me.
my heart and soul includes my mind all is you. only you.
here i want to tell you that bby.. i love you. more than you can imagine. more than before. more than every single second that pass by.

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