Missing you

I always thought I can forget you and put you aside without thinking how you are there... But seems like till so far I still can't do it. You still lingering in my mind and haunting me like a colorless shadow :( I used to doubt am I really love you after those hurt you made to me. Frankly after knowing you have a gf and saw this picture my heart went broken and when o see your fb with the girl still got hang out and the sister I felt like I am really just a spare.
I used to thought I really can be blind on that part I can't I am sorry.
But I really love Lu Yee Yong and this can't be deny till today.
My heart really have been stolen :( wishing that somehow in some way I can wake up.



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爱

爱你的我，
不会停止爱你的。
我不想没有你在我的生命，我想要变成你的手机帮你接来电。
我想变成你的手表在你的身边每分每一秒的give你看时钟。
我爱你。。。
真的只爱你一个



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i am sad, you there coax :')

when i am down all i wish is having you to coax me,
bring comfort to me even you are so far away from me.
i wouldn't mind even it just a call or text because it is from you meant more than any other that try to coax me.
bby, i loved you because this love i always hoping a little tiny care from you.
: )
i felt so reluctant that you called last night,
ya i did tear but those is feeling relief tear. because the one i talk with is you.
i love you.. thanks bby.



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my 2nd jan 2011

even it just one hours something...
but i am happy to see you again
your lips still the same... : ) the way you kiss me is just those sweet old time.
the way you pet my head still the same.
i love you more than anything.
i really wish to spend more time with you
even i am so tired still i felt like i am blessed.. : )


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birthday without you. :'(

bby, i missed you. happy to talk phone with you hug hug hug...
but this is the second year and second times of my birthday that you arent by my side...
how i wish i wish you are there. =(
i miss you bby...
hugs hugs



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christmas without you.

there are not you by myside for the christmas night.
i missed you... much.
hugs...
somehow i felt cheated by you..
been in a relationship for about 3 weeks plus...
and i was like a stupid.
dont you know i will felt hurt? i do love you like i dont love before.



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bby.. never let you go again.

love you not only a week or couple days matter but is truly from the bottom of my heart loving you.
there so much thing happen in between us and i never thought i got do so much that hurts you till i heard story from boys part then i realize and here i want to hold you tight hug you tight never gonna let go of you from me anymore. i love you yee yong.... muacks
happy can talk phone with you cant wait to get the phone.. =)



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finally....
i done the travel book : )
bby i hope i hope you can read it... xixi
muacks......... ziwei go oioi lo...
tomorrow fighting in your work ya...

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gift from bby

a little thing from you can made me smile for a week.
a little gift from you can made me stare at it after hours and hours.
thinking how the situation is when you choosing the gift for me.
and why you end up choosing that gift.
how long you spend time on choosing it for me?
all this question made a smile to my face.
late at night you didnt get home.
out till late at night that the way you always been.
i just want you to be safe because all of you are a matter for me.
i love you.
night my love one. sleep tight and sweet dream there.

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how much i want to be right there for you.

i closed my eyes, you are the one who appear in my mind.
picture of you are so just so clear even it been so long we didnt meet each other and spend time together.
because my heart and soul only have you. one and only that is you....

yee yong, there no one else but you.

how i wish i can be right beside you when the day turning dark.
i bet you are tired from your work. hoping i can just be there for you holding your hand tight and hug you from behind whisper to your ear that "i love you bby"
help you do a little message before you go to sleep.
help you cover with blanky ^^





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10th dec 10 talked phone

i realize i miss your everything : )
you seems so tired how i wish i can be there for you. muacks! you this bby made me always love you. there is no other but only you..
and will always be you only. ^^

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be with you is all that i want.

i just want to be with you for the rest of my life.
because you meant more than just friend even best friend.
you are my everything : ) and i always hearts you.

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Happy MOnthsary

it is 9th of Dec jor ^^ happy monthsary.
seems like all the monthsary i been crying like hahahaz.
i thought after time pasted my heart to you will seems like your becoming less and less but it doesnt seems that way. but all the other way round.
miko asking me to say how i felt. i did and you asking just be friend.
maybe i really not someone that you loved.
still i hearts you so much more than words and tear can show.
my love to you dont have any lies but is truly deeply in love with you.
can you imagine how pain i was?
can you feel my hurts?
can you felt the saltiness of my tear,
can you feel i always been missing you.

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i miss the way you smile
i miss the way you made me smile back =)
i never want to cry in front of you.
i never want to get weak...
but i really cant hold much longer on those pain.

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28th Oct 2010

you doesn't know how disappointed am i... how much it hurts to me. hearing from another girl saying that you are flirting with them and you didnt and never admit you with me even they saw before we hold hand and i really dont know what to say. end up nothing and my toughest cant help and last i cried.
my tear drops.
how hurt it is.
did you ever love me?
i wonder...

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i love you

i miss you so badly.
it just hurt.
how i wish i can get someone new in my life. so i wont cry.
i really tired being tough alone. can you dont made me cry.
all i want from you just dont made me cry

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hurt

am i something that you need then find. and never take me seriously?
is that i am just something you need not respect?
call me to on skype twice then yourself didnt on?
is that a joke?
is that you want me forever be the one who tolerate?
no way.
can you change or you dont love me at all just dont find me.. i really rather love you myself dont want you torture my feelings and heart. my soul and heart isnt that tough at all

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Behind the Diary

you always are someone special for me,
maybe i really being brainwashed.
somehow just want you to know that
you meant something really really special for me.
you always being a part of my life.
i cant promise forever,
but i really take you as someone pretty special till the last breath of mine.
<3

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Special

my diet plan. =) huggies. been 18 days jor lo... but last night dont know what happen. vomit very kick... even i ate around8.30++ then around 12.50 start vomitting =S cant help me...
i just know banana that in green color can be eat de =) lolx.
without you i need to finish the whole malicai myself. no longer can eat with rice or stuff because you here i can eat like that. now if ask for malicai only can eat it... because i cant finish so much.
bby~ i miss you...
i miss calling your name.
i miss seeing your eyes
i miss hugging you from the back.
i miss the smell of yours.
i miss the way you sleep.
i miss when i woke up you are just right beside me.
not because a habit. is because i love you~

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when you come to problems

i felt like a fool... but just cant help myself to be there for you when you need me.
i tired to be tough try not to care or soft hearted still =( i fail.
i love you.. i worried.
i care about you.
even just open you profile and check out.. my heart, my chest, my breath all are out of my control!

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you always the one

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am i stupid?

people keeps saying i am just a "shuoi pou" for you.
when there is no one you know there always me waiting for you.
is that working that way? i wonder. what am i for you till today i cant figure it out.
am i just a joke for you.? yes i suppose if not you wont so bother to hurt me and made me cry even just sometimes find me sometimes doesnt right.

i just wonder am i doing the right thing.
ya i do complain saying you not good this and that but why am i still letting you hurt me.
is that love really made me blind? i cant understand or solve the myst till now.

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no more lie pls

we talk... we argue...
i cried...
i really didnt mind... just please dont take me as a toy... because you meant so much special thing for me. =( i love you more than anything in this world....
you ask me am i putting you as the goal of my stuff... and are you the first position well this should be very pretty clear i suppose because you meant so much for me... i love you more than anything can replace this love. you should not ask me such a thing... should know it clearly..
dont tell me lies.
dont cheat me...
because i really love you

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movie

you used to bring me go movie every weekend so there will no movie i will be outdated... but now no longer you by my side so much movie i didnt watch because no more yong yong bring ziwei to cinema... i miss you... no matter how much pain you made me felt somehow i just miss you more than ever... =(
i just cant help myself angry or hurt all the 24/7... somehow the sweetness is there always with me...

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pain

you hurt me so bad today.
i dont know what to say other than just can cry there.
you made me so broken once again.
it hurts like hell and you never know how pain i am in now.
all i been wanting just be in relationship with you so i wont felt so insecure. you should know well than others all i want is you. you should know just a hug from you i felt secure i will be calm and sleep well.
how should i stop my tear with all of my mind is you?
you can care so much in one day and suddenly doesnt care at all like that how should i believe and felt secure with that? it hurts

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Monthsary 2year 1 month

Happy Monthsary..
you dont know how happy i am can chat with you through skype for more than one hour nearly 2 hours if add 3 more minutes. =)
8th oct 2010...

now is 12.21am 9th oct... =) monthsary bby... i love you... and it never change till today.
heart you more than word can replace the feeling i had to you. ^^

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i love you more than word could show

even got assignment that need to be due still remember rest well oh... dont like when you got sick=(
i miss you very badly... i always thought i have forgot you. or i had let go since there so much pain occur by you to me. i cant bare any of it anymore. still i cant because you are so much meaningful and special for me.
my heart and soul includes my mind all is you. only you.
here i want to tell you that bby.. i love you. more than you can imagine. more than before. more than every single second that pass by.

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hugs

buu, i miss you. i really do miss you. wonder do you miss me much like how i missed you. ? question that i cant answer. =(
your life there is so interesting how am i suppose to handle it?
i am happy to see your parents,
i know you must be missing them and
always will buy stuff eat for themm... no worries i done that.
daddy = pisang goreng cheese
mom= chocolate indulgent ^^

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xixi

i want to be star so no matter where you at you can see me around. =) even the cloud hide me from you after few second you can see me once again. hugs
due to my chicken pox i get to come back to tawau. how i wish you are there as well =( miss all the time we used to have. the way

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Happy Mooncake Festival

you are the one who made me smile and laugh.
your text maybe you felt that is not something but it is something sweet for me. =)
i love you i do...

22 Sept 2010
Good luck for the test n all s best

Happy mooncake festival. I miss the time we celebrate the mooncake festival last year. We rush for bus, we play the guessing game, we play the telescope, we win the price, n many many more. I just wonder, don you still remember all this n that? :)

Haha, donate to mosquito :) U really don have soulmate... Dinner yet?

Then wat you gonna eat? Goin to celebrate with?

Then wat you eat?

Doing?

the text really sweet somehow it felt down again after a little sweet. =S i miss you more than words could said. i miss you. huggies

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